Why

This blog is just a place for me to express little bits of my soul in the form of poetry. It may be depressing, or happy, or lame, or really crappy, but it's what i feel at the moment.
I also wanted to clarify:

THESE ARE ALL FIRST DRAFTS!

so feel free to critique, hate on, like, suggest, or whatever you want...:)

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

In response to The Vindication of the Rights of Women by Mary Wollstonecraftt

Marriage like a wall
encloses you in your house.
You are chained to the sink,
your hands constantly under,
blue dish soap your perfume.

Break the chain!
Drain the sink!
Seek your own life of
Virtuosity

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

End of Class

Sitting in class
my mind up my ass
and the whole room going insane.
It's like a condom on my brain
and nothing can get in
and I am getting thin
and I want to go home and eat,
to hear those moving feet,
those engines softly flooring
as they eagerly escape.
please, clock that
looks like Abe,
be honest with me,
how many more minutes?

Sunday, August 21, 2011

My Office


My Office

I sit on the floor,
Cement, my swivel chair,
Leaning over my computer,
Boogie board, my mahogany desk.
I feel classy,
As blue and pink lights laugh at my face
And candlelight twinkles my eyes.
I type respectable words on a respectable site
And lift my pinky up to reveal the words
creative. 

Friday, August 19, 2011

Mistle Toe

Christmas lights in my eyes,
Menorah flames on my cheeks,

He looks at me under that mistle toe
and the feelings I felt, I didn't know.
But the moment was there
and I took it
and kept it
hostage in my snow globe.

Second To Last Day

One day to go, and eager for summer,
we sat in the office selling the last of the school food.
He was there, Bob.
Our amazing office assistant,
the man who knew everything and everyone,
who told us stories about hobos at Berkley.
And he told us he was leaving,
and lunch was coming to an end,
and we felt parting in the air,
But instead of a last goodbye and good luck,
"See you tomorrow!"

And we never saw him again.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Finished

Finished


I look back at the pages:
Seven hundred and seventy-six.
I weigh the book in my hand:
Point-seven-eight.
I close it, as thrill rushes
To meet the floodgates of my pride.
I have done it. 

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Mustard

Mustard
You are my enemy.
Your dainty yellow flowers repulse me.
You take over a plot with your chemicals,
destroying native plants
so your sperm can prosper.
Well, not for long.
I will grip your spiny stem and pull.
I wil yank you from your home
that never was your own.
And if that doesn't work,
I shall hack and hack and hack
until you are no more.

Cupping

Please.
Put a cup on my back,
with a flame underneath,
And through the manipulated plastic,
take my last breath,
And then, I'll feel it
Grasp me.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Feeling Friendless

Feeling Friendless

My social life
Feels like
An abyss.
An empty asylum.
I hit white walls
So hard but bounce back.
I can’t think
Of one person
That is thinking of me right now.
I can’t think that one day someone
Maybe, will lay with me in bed
Will like me.
Will know me.
Will see me.
I am real.
I am real?
Right?

Self-Confidence


Self-Confidence
In a failed attempt at showing my friends how I have developed in Scotland,
And the perfect coincidence that my parents would be out of town,
I decided to throw a party.

What more, I concluded that anyone could come
What more, illicit substances could be done.
What more, there would be no sun.
And I thought, what could be more fun.

So they left, and the sun left, and Tuesday night came with Excitement.
So I cleaned, and the moon cleaned, and possibilities expanded.

And as the clock struck 7, and no one showed, I believed still.
But as the clock struck 8, and no one appeared, I wanted to leave
But as the clock struck 9, and no one appeared, I stopped caring.
But as the clock struck 10 and no one arrived, I went outside.
But as the clock struck 11, and no one came, I closed my eyes.

And I thought, “Wow, I am going to have self-confidence issues.”